Do camels have nipples or udders like cows?

I'm 30 today. Doesn't feel much different than 28. Way different than 29 though. So far, so blah.

Black sports jacket, t-shirt, sunglasses and blue jeans. He wasn't wearing the sports jacket in the traditional sense. It was drapped across his shoulders, adding to the smarminess. He passed me on the stairs of the old courthouse. We exchanged those awkward strangers passing must be polite greetings. He just seemed smug and I didn't like it.

I don't want to be one of those kind. You know, people who talk about politics and what not. No offense, Todd. Lately, however, I seem to be developing an ideology without trying. I'm not one who wants to have a big political belief system. I don't want to be known as a republican or democrat or libertarian or whatever. When I vote, I vote for people who I think best represent my interests, and the ones I don't know, I don't vote at all. The biggest reason I don't want to be one of those people is that I don't feel like anything can get accomplished. Argue argue argue. No matter how much truth you have on your side, the other side just doesn't want to see it your way. It's more frustration than anything.

fun with html

Just trying out some different things. to see what happensto text when I use some html tags

Acting, thank you
Ever watch a movie and see an actor or actress and think, "Cool I have always liked that actor. This movie will be good." And then realize that you have never seen that actor/actress before. It's a weird phenomenon. Actors that that has happened to me with include, Jack Black on Cable Guy and Steve Zaun on That Thing You Do. I was sitting there watching the movie thinking what have I seen these guys in before. They were great. But I had never seen them before in any movie. Strange indeed.

Word
It's weird how some words just take off and start being used everywhere. Bullish and scuffled are two words that I rarely heard and lately I hear them all the time.

What to do?
I think the hardest part of blogging is I don't know what to write about. Most blogs are theme oriented, but this one is just random typing. I have no focus on here. Should I focus on writing about Abby? On work? Computers? Sports? Movies? Music? All? None? It's questions like these that lead me not to write anything. Who reads this? I am always surprised to hear that people have actually read what I write on here.

Guitar blues
I miss playing that guitar. I only had it for a week and I didn't play it a whole lot, but after playing a little on Aaron's guitar this weekend, it really made me realize that I wanted to learn to play. That is a good thing, bad thing is guitars are pricey. Todd suggested a pawn shop. I'll have to stop by one sometime and check their prices.

Enter the Matrix
The matrix is only days away. What an awesome movie the first one was. I've been checking out the matrix essays blog and it is pretty in depth. I just don't get symbolism when I watch movies. Is anyone else like that? Green represents the matrix and blue is the real world. How do you get that? I guess I wouldn't make a good filmmaker because I would never include that kind of stuff on purpose. Who comes up with this stuff?

Haven't posted in a while. There's been some weird host dns problems with the bbr so I haven't messed with it. I'm faking the dns with the hosts file on my computer here. Got that? Looking into MySQL lately. It's free so that is good. Hopefully we can use it here at work. Abby's birthday is today. Big time to be had tonight at Chuck E Cheese's for sure.

Today is Cinco de Mayo. Think I spelled that right. Not sure what the holiday means, but I know mexican food is good.

I hate screwing up. I messed up the other day on something at work. Someone called today about it and I just feel like ripping my heart out. My mind is weird. I fear failure so much that I don't want to try anything. It's hard for me to do things unless I absolutely know 100% that they are going to work out. I'm like a lazy perfectionist. Problem is, I have a bunch of ideas and things I want to do, but I can't motivate myself to do it because of the failure thing. It's harder at work now because I am friends with my boss so I really don't want to mess up. Argh. What can I do to make it up? How can I have a 0 failure record? All is in vain. Must go pray.

I actually ran 40 minutes today. Laura told me that after the first two weeks of this running program the whole tired leg syndrome would go away. It did. I felt like I could keep going.

Quite the interesting week. I have an opportunity to be involved in two ministries at church after not doing anything for 10 years. Jeff Locker wants me to run the softball league this year and Shawn asked me to help out in the high school services with the sound board. I'll probably end up doing both. Softball won't involve a whole lot, basically determining if we are rained out or not. The high school thing is a whole other story. I don't know anything about the sound board and it is intimidating. We shall see.